Growing & Changing

Tonight we had a BFC get-together at Pam’s. 

I am so happy we did.

When I first joined BFC it was a family. I became a part of that family and at that time I needed it more than anything…

Pam and I were discussing how it sort of drifted a part for a while. We even pin-pointed when that began to happen… But during Christmas time we took a step towards togetherness. We had a get-together for my visit and we had everyone there and it became a real opportunity to remind us all that we were there for each other. This was emphasized later in the evening when some of us needed to focus our prayers and energy to Sky and Pam… Since then… Well, Pam and I see how much a family we are becoming again.


This is the perfect time. So many of us are needing this right now. Including me. When I got back to LA I realized how much I needed my Boarders For Christ Family. It is one of the big reasons that I felt compelled to come back to Washington when I did. It was a great choice. Thank You, God, for pushing me in the right direction and I pray that you bless James through his current hardships, Sky and Pam through their’s, and the rest of the family with anything that maybe troubling them. 


Good night,

Alyssa 

Thinking about my goals and aspirations. I want to improve greatly in my photography, my health, and how I go about certain situations. I have goals that I need to work harder to achieve. 

I am not in the same place I had always imagined myself to be in by now but I am okay with that. I see my personal growth and I am proud of who I am but I do plan to better myself in so many ways.

Cheers to late night thoughts about life!

Alyssa <3 

I feel like my Spiritual journey has been a weird one. 

For years I was confused and had no Idea who God really was. I understood religions very well, I studied them very well. I just was never very comfortable with religion.

The summer after high school I met BFC and began my real journey with Jesus Christ. 

It has been a journey full of many highs and lows….  

For a while I went to Church every Sunday… I even became a member and taught elementary sunday school. 

I went to bible studies almost every week too.

At first I struggled with public prayer, talking about Jesus, well- anything and everything…

Then came a period of time where I had no transportation to Church and our BFC bible studies were put on hold. 

I lived with this roommate in Brier during this period. I went off track. Partied a lot… did things I am not proud of… changed a lot of how I viewed things. God and I were not as close. I did not make him my #1. I made social acceptance my priority.

Then I got a boyfriend. I think he became my way out, my escape. I moved to early in our relationship and I rented a room from this older lady. During this time I nannied 24/7 and when I had time it was all about my relationship with my boyfriend. Not God. 

Within a few months I came to a mutual agreement to leave my nanny job and I moved in with my boyfriend and his mother. Neither of them are exactly believers… My boyfriend is actually very anti-God. I had a war within myself but I still kept faith.

Then came my acceptance into City Year. This meant moving to LA… so, after some time I broke up with him and spent my last few weeks in Washington, at my parents.

I lived in LA from July 2012 to the end of January 2013.

Living in LA was a major roller coaster of events and emotions. But I believe that my time there has brought me much closer to God. He is definitely #1 right above improving myself. 

I am excited to have Him as my number one and to use BFC and Created as tools to spread his good grace to others. 

Bests,

Alyssa Kai Downer

Growth: The process of developing or maturing physically, mentally, or spiritually.

I think that I have been growing a lot over the last three years… more so over this last year.

I joined City Year and went to LA to come back a different person. I did. The experience did not go the way I planned and I came back much sooner but I can see the changes in myself and others have noticed too. It has been brought to my attention by a few. The most heart-warming was from Thom. I appreciate everything he has said to me on the subject. 

I want to go over some of the ways I have and am growing and changing. This is my goal for this blog. I absolutely do not mind who sees this. I will never post anything I feel the need to hide on here. I am an open book. I want people to see my changes and how I am growing.

I am going to start by dissecting my growth… moving on to more in depth about my changes and then transition into my goals for the two.



Bests,

Alyssa Kai Downer
 

Why is this my URL?

Backstory- It was my original url 5 years ago when I began my tumblr adventures.

Why now? I originally came up with this username/url because I have always done my best to be a positive and upbeat person… yet others try to bring me down. My last name is ‘Downer’ which definitely does not help my cause. haha.



Bests,

Alyssa Kai Downer